I am a good Mom.

I am a good Mom. 

What exactly does this mean to other mothers out there? It is something you tell yourself while you are getting out of bed for the 10th time at night to go see why your little one is awake again or are you being the one that feels that you child needs to cry it out and learn to sooth themselves? Are you the mom that breastfeeds because it's the best thing you can do for your baby or are you using formula because you can't lose anymore of your sanity being a milk cow? Are you the mom that sees your child fall down at the park and you watch before jumping to their aid or do you jump right up in order to  help them right away? Are you the mom that has 1 child or 10? Are you the mom that can have a baby and fit in your pre pregnancy clothes within weeks of having it or are you still not in them and your baby is 10? Did you have a natural birth or are you given the death glare when you say that you had a C-section?

There are SOOOO many different ways that we are moms, so many different sinarios that make you the person you are. A good Mom. Society has come up with this vision that we have to be perfect. That our kids can't throw tantrums, that we can't have stretch marks, that we should have our hair and make up done daily, that our children should excel at life before they can even walk. We all know this. Yet, somehow we all fall into that hole that causes us to feel like horrible mothers. Why do they do this to us? Probably a question that we will never get the answer to. I can tell you this much, I have some incredible women in my life that have set such an example to me on how to be a good mom. However some how each day I question if I am or not. I have kept my child alive and she is going on 18 months. So that is something. But I still question if I am doing everything right. 

So here I am, being a stay at home mom, taking care of my sweet baby girl. We get dressed every day, I do her hair to keep it out of her face. Mine usually ends up in a pony tail and I daily wear yoga pants. Daily she will have a melt down about one thing or another, sometimes in public sometimes at home. Our dinners at home seems to go amazingly well but when we do manage to go out to eat it always seems to be a disaster and we never sit to eat at a restaurant, so please forgive me as I let my child play on the floor while I scarf my food down. Please forgive our tantrums and understand that I am doing my very best I can. Understand that as these little children grow and develop, they are becoming their own person and having their own personality and most the time it isn't the same opinion that I had, so it ends with them being upset. Sometimes I think that is how we all have to learn in this life. We choose our own opinion on things and most the time others don't like it and we have to learn to either throw a fit about it and throw ourselves on the ground or we can be ok with the situation and walk on. Please don't let society tell you whether or not you are a good mom. Let you be the judge of you and be the best you can be.

I am an amazing Mom.  

My husband is the most supportive soul on the face of the Earth. He talks me down when I am on fire, he laughs when I am on the verge of tears about something silly, he hugs me when I least expect is and when I need it the most. I don't know how people can do it without a significant other. He is the rock that holds our family up from the worst and I am seriously the most blessed person ever to have him in my life. Our sweet girl is at that age where she LOVES her dad, and it is the most heart melting thing in the world to see her fawn over him and him play with her and hug her in every way a little girl should be hugged by her daddy. I feel that in this life your husband should be your #1. This is so hard when you have kids. They are in constant need of your attention and time. I do try my very best to be the best wife I can to my sweet husband. I need him, I need him every single day by my side. I couldn't do it without him. He is mine forever and I couldn't be more happier about that. 

I am an amazing Wife.

I always tell myself that I need to be the better person. I need to be the one that steps up. That volunteers first, that can always be counted on in a time of need. I feel that this is something I do for myself. I love being there for people. I love to be the person people can count on no matter what. It's a lot of work and there are days that I feel like I just can't sometimes, but once I have done it, I always feel better! I try to be everyones everything, and there are times that it just isn't logical or isn't possible. And that is ok. It's ok to fall short sometimes because you can't be all at once. ITS OK. That's what makes us human. We try our best and just let go of the rest. I treat others how I wish to be treated and I feel that I should get the same respect in return. I am always trying to better myself. Shouldn't that be what we are all doing? Making ourselves better tomorrow than we are today? I love life, I love my life, I love the beauty that is all around us every day. Try to enjoy every minute of it. Just because we have to plan for tomorrow, doesn't mean that we can't enjoy today!

I am an amazing person.

I know this is a whole lot of rambling and maybe some of it doesn't even make sense. I am ok with that. Hopefully you are too.

15 Months Old

I am very behind on blogging. Life has just seemed to fly by this last little while! It's been crazy! So here is a little recap of the last couple months. I am not the best writer, everything in my head seems so deep and meaningful and then I go to write it down and it sounds nothing like I had in my head. So I am grateful for todays technology that allows me to have my phone on hand to snap a picture at any given second. So I tend to let my pictures tell most of my stories. 

Macady's birthday was in October and it was a blast! We had a whole house full of guests and she was purely spoiled rotten.. We need a bigger house to fit all her toys in. :) She had a blast and was very excited with all the new things to play with. 

We have been going to this place called "The Little Gym" and Macady LOVES it! She has learned to walk on a balance beem, do a summer sault, hang from rings, throw a ball, kick a ball, run, and a million other things. We look forward to every Friday morning. :)

Since Macady was born she has always had an attitude, she was always sassy, and even a little down right cranky all the time. In her early months we had been ran through the ringer trying different things. I went off dairy while I was breastfeeding because they thought she might have a dairy intolerance. She never had normal poos (TMI). We pretty much got passed off as being a fussy baby and that was it. Nothing more was said nothing more was done, I just had to deal with it. We couldn't ever go out to dinner with her because she wouldn't sit in the high chair for more than five minutes before having a melt down. She never woke up happy, she was always crying. I always pictured my child being excited and smiling to see me when I walked in to get her in the mornings and after naps, and she never was. I was beyond frustrated and was determined to find an answer. Surely there was a happy baby in there somewhere. Finally a little after Macadys' birthday my lower back had been hurting and I had thought about how I had gone to the Chiropractor the whole time I was pregnant and it got me through my pregnancy. WAIT!!! LIGHT BULB.. Maybe that is what is wrong?! Maybe she has a pinched nerve or something?! So I did some research and found a Chiropractor that specializes in pediatrics. He got us in right away for an analysis. After doing some scans on her sure as heck she was pretty messed up! He showed me all the spots she had problems. Her tail bone was in her lower back LITERALLY in her lower back. He said he was sure she had been in pain her whole short life. Also when she walked her left leg turned out just slightly. And if you remember our birth story she was very tangled up with her left leg up over her neck wrapped up in the cord, hence the slight turn out. My poor baby!! So after 2, just 2 adjustments she was HAPPY!!!! She had normal not water poos, she was drinking whole milk (which I was told she probably would never be able to do because she was going to be intollerant), she would fall asleep in my arms, she woke up HAPPY and smiling! Not only that she was sitting through dinners without crying. She would listen to me when I was talking and then she started running. :) My baby is officially a happy child. (Minus the inbetween spits of still being a child and teething) I love her to pieces, I always have, but it sure makes it more fun when they are happy! I will for sure be taking my next child to him when its born because I don't want my next to be feeling the way Macady has for so long! Poor baby! So since the first of November I have had a very happy child that is a constant chatter box. I am just hoping that some day all of it will start making sense because right now it just sounds like mumbo jumbo. She did say her first Official word the other day though.. Apple. :)

Macady took 6 weeks of swim lessons and thought it was pretty awesome! She loves the water, she gets very excited and kicks like crazy! She can jump off the edge to us, get dunked, and went down the water slide with daddy. She thinks its pretty fun. So we might have a gymnastic swimmer on our hands!

We went to the Denver stock show to watch grandma show, while we were there we went to the petting zoo and got to see lots of babies. Donkeys, sheep, goats, pigs, chickens, alpacas. Macady was kissed by a goat and bit by a pig :/ Chelsea and I got attacked by the very hungry alpacas!! 

Macady had her 15th month check up today and here are her stats. :)

Head - 18.8 Inches - 94th Percentile

Weight - 23 Pounds 8 Ounces - 80th Percentile

Height - 32.7 Inches - 98th Percentile.

She is growing up so much!! It is so sad to not have a "baby" any more. Everytime I see one or hold one I cry! Yeah talk about pathetic! Lol.. Someday we'll have another one! For now I just think we will enjoy our big girl!! She got her second MMR and her first Chicken pox shot today. Those ones hurt. But I just found out that they aren't supposed to get the chicken pox any more! They get one shot when they are 15 months and then the second when they are 4 and they aren't supposed to get them! Strangest things ever and all I can say is LUCKY DUCKS! Those were the worst! I guess it just makes my life that much easier! Well that is all for now! I had better go get the dishes done while someone is sleeping! :)

11 Months Old

Well we have made it to 11 Months!! I can't believe how big she has gotten in such a short time!! She amazes me every day with the new things she learns! We have started walking! She is getting more and more brave and goes off on her own more now while walking. She has started to get up by herself in the middle of the floor which is pretty comical to watch! She loves to turn her dads Xbox on and off and watch the lights turn on! Irregardless if he is in the middle of a football game! We are headed to Utah for the weekend. Chelsea, Dace, and Harper are getting sealing in the temple and we are taking Macady's one year old pictures and our family pictures. It's so crazy!!! One year old!! I have a one year old!! We will be pretty busy next month but have some fun things coming up! So stay posted for those!! Sorry this post is so short. Got to get the car loaded while she is napping!! Here are some pics to recap the last month!

Macady uses a diaper box for a slide (don't worry I got her a real one for her birthday)

First time ever falling asleep on dad during elders quorum. She never falls asleep being held!

I got the new IPhone 5S. It's super amazing. First picture on it. 

Macady gobbling down dad's apple at church. I didn't know she could eat an apple like it but she sure did. 

Headed to church. We don't get many shots with mommy looking decent. 

Our little monster!! She seriously is the cutest, funniest thing on the planet!

"Cheese" she will smile every time you say it!

10 Months Old

Macady is 10 Months old this weekend. Everyday this little girl just gives me more to smile about. She is growing and learning so much every day it just amazes me. I sit and watch her and I just picture a clock with all parts moving and connecting. Like how she learned to open the cupboard doors and how she can pull the tail on one of her toys to make it work. She learns so quickly and is so smart. I would love to say that every day is fun and laughs but its not. She knows how to push my buttons and get me to the end of my rope. There are some days that I tell myself that I will never have another child, and then she does something so cute and so sweet, like crawling over and putting her head right on my lap and just smiling at me.. It melts my heart every time! She is my child and I am so grateful to have her in my life! I can't imagine my days without her! She is so close to walking right now its crazy! She has a little push toy that she pushes all over the house and thinks she is so big! :) She can also turn around at the top of the stairs and scoots down. She only gets about two steps down before she turns around and thinks she is at the bottom. She can say things on command now like mama, dada, nana, and she will shake her head back and forth when you tell her No and she says nanananana.. Little stink! We are well on our way to being weened. She nurses first thing when she wakes up, another time before her afternoon nap and then once more before bed. So we are down to 2 feeds a day and she is also sleeping all night from 9-8. :) It's heavenly to sleep that long again. 

Heather and the kids came out for a week before school started and we had a blast! We went shopping, to Water World (Totally awesome place! We are going to make it a family tradition to have them come out every year! We had a blast!), and we went to a trampoline warehouse and played there for an afternoon. I forgot how much I liked jumping on the trampoline! I also forgot that I could still do front handsprings and front flips! We got quite the work out in! 

Speaking of work out! I have been doing Cross fit with Johnny for about a month now and I am enjoying it! Every morning after a work out I feel like I have been hit by a truck but it's all worth it! I am down to lower than my pre-pregnancy weight and I am loving my "Mommy Body". Most days I feel more attractive than I ever did in high school even! So I am glad to be in this stage! 

Lesha also came out over the weekend after Heather and the kids left and she spoiled us all rotten.. She bought Macady a new outfit that is adorable and she bought me a couple pairs of shoes and a couple pairs of... Wait for it.... Skinny Jeans.. I have never worn Skinny Jeans in my life.. I have never thought that they looked good on me until apparently now! :) I am in love with them! I am so glad I was talked into it! She also bought Johnny several pairs of work pants and shirts! He has worked so hard to get the the point he is at now and he looks amazing! I am so proud of him and all he has accomplished! He is such an amazing, selfless person, who would give the shirt of his back to a stranger. I am the luckiest person alive to be a part of his life, let alone his wife for eternity! He takes such great care of Macady and I and is always looking out for whats best for us. He always thinks of hisself last and us first and for that I am so grateful! Our life has it's trials daily but we are able to overcome anything that is thrown our way because we work together and have each other.. For the long haul!!

We are going to Utah in September for my sister and her husband to be sealed in the temple and to their daughter Harper. We are also getting family pictures done for my family and Johnnys' family. We are also having Macady's 1 year old pictures done as well! I can't wait! I am so glad that my sister does wonderful Photography work! Then in October we will be going to Vegas for one of our friends wedding (Macady gets to be a flower girl) And then Macady's Birthday!!! :) My little girl is growing up!!

Stay Tuned for next time! :)

At the trampoline house. We had fun!

Grandma Lesha and Baby Girl

9 Months Old

My sweet baby Macady is 9 months old today! I can't even believe how fast these last 9 months have gone. They have gone by alot faster than they did when I was pregnant thats for sure! She is such a joy in our lives! She keeps us on our feet and always wondering what is going to come next!

She has 5 teeth with two breaking through as we speak! She crawls ALL over the place and is into everything she can reach! She also can pull herself up on pretty much everything and she can walk from one end of something to the other. She likes to play patty cake and she likes it when I sing along to any song that is playing at the moment. (It doesn't sound the greatest, but she seems to think so!) She also loves theme songs on any TV show or movie that we watch (The Office, How I met your Mother, Grey's Anatomy) I don't know if it something in the jingle or what but whatever she is doing she stops to dance either standing up or sitting down and then when it ends she is back to getting into trouble! She has an absolute MAD love for the bath! If it is running she is standing by it! (We have to be very careful not to leave the room when the tub is filling or full) And don't even try closing the door to keep her out. She sits and bangs on the door and screams because she knows someone is taking a bath without her! Lol.. She also loves to help "Load" the dish washer. Which entails her unloading it as you put it in! She doesn't really eat baby food she just eats whatever we are eating for breakfast, lunch, or dinner. She loves it all. Her favorite fruit is watermelon and she loves chicken. She does this with every item that I put away anywhere. (Toys, laundry,) you get the idea. We are still nursing every 3-4 hours and we start weening next month.. So crazy!  She has pretty much veto'd the binky. She will only take it for about 1 minute when she is falling asleep and then it gets spit out. but that is only some times. She takes 2  two hour naps a day. Occasionally they can be longer or shorter but they are pretty exact. She goes to bed at 9 and wakes up around 2 to eat and goes right back to bed till 7 and then we are  up for the day. Somedays we get lucky and get to sleep till 8 but that's pretty rare! She is always up within 2-3 minutes of 7 in the morning! How do they do that?

Last week was quite the week! Macady was on one and sheh decided to grab a glass full of red cherry limeade that was out of reach and pull it off the entertainment center on to my white carpet. I about had a heart attack! So while I was in the process of using as many cleaning supplies as I have in my house she managed to find a water bottle and pop the lid off of it and was partially choking on it and couldn't get it out of her mouth. In my complete panic I had to decide between letting her choke while I went and washed the cleaning products off my hands and then run to her aid and pull the cap out of her mouth or I had to take the chance of her getting poisoned by the supplies on my hands and get it out of her mouth and not let her choke to death on it.. I went with the poison. So I quickly got it out and then finished my task of getting the red out of my carpet. Needless to say Pintrest is AWESOME and I got it all out. Use baking soda, 409 spray and hydrogen proxide followed by scrubbing and then using a white towel on top and then iron all over it. It soaked it all out and onto the towl CRAZY but totally worked! Got every bit of it out.

Anyways! Thinking that we had gone through enough followed the next day of Macady falling down the stairs because the baby gate didn't get shut! She was done crying by the time I got her upstairs but I wasn't! I was distraught! I was sure she was going to be dead or something broken! I felt like the mom of the century with that one! But all is well and we are all still alive! Hoping that we won't have any more "Spills" for a while!

I am starting to plan Macady's birthday party! I can't believe in a few short months she will be one! It's so crazy!!  Here are some pictures and a cute video of her laughing! She cracks me up! I entered it into Americas Funnies Home Videos! :)

First Piggy Tail

Loves Sketti

Macady's first Free Slurpee Day! 7-11

Chicken Appreciation Day. Dress like a cow get free chicken! :P
 We have awesome Friends!

Standing up. Rainy day wants to go play.

After falling down the stairs. YIKES!! It looked better the next day.

Pee-A-Boo! Loves the box that diapers came in.

Daddy and Macady on the 4th of July

Standing up! 9 Months Old! I'm sure she is going to walk soon!!

Horse back riding with Mom. She gets it from me.
Didn't want to get off. Can you blame her?

8 Months Old

Well we finally hit the big 8 months old! I can't even believe how fast time has gone and how big my baby is now! She has her 2 bottom teeth and another bottom one just cut through. I know that the two tops ones arn't far behind because her gums are super swollen and she chews and drools like crazy! We are officially crawling and in to absolutely everything!! It's so fun yet such a pain all at the same time! She cracks me up half the time she does things just to get a reaction from you. She is her father through and through.. She has some of me in there but she is definetly her fathers daughter. Probably another reason I love her so much..

I spent a majority of the month of June in Vernal helping Chelsea with her new baby Harper. She was born on June 15th and she is just the cutest little peanut ever! I am glad I was able to go out and help her as much as I could. We were able to really come closer than we have been probably our whole lives and it was nice to feel like we could be there for each other.. She and Dace are great parents already and they have so much more to look forward to!

Johnny turned 29 on the 20th! He is starting to Creep up there on the old man scale! :) Since I was gone over his birthday our friends were nice enough to take him out to dinner and ice cream! He is such an amazing guy and I am so blessed to have him as my partner in crime! :)

We are getting together with some friends for a BBQ for the 4th of July and maybe play some games so that should be fun. Probably go hiking or something fun this weekend and then next week I am throwing a Maxi Skirt party! :) I have a few projects that I have in the works for my little home. Mostly for Macady's room so we shall see how all that pans out.  Life is going great. It was nice to be in Vernal for a bit and get to see family but it sure is nice to be back home with my husband and in my own bed! Well thats all for now!
Well thats all for now!

Crash Course Catch Up!

So every time never fails I tell myself I need to write on my blog.. It makes me feel better to sit down and type from time to time, but yet I never seem to find the time! Little Miss Mac takes up soooo much time these days! And when she goes down for bed at 9 there is that small part of me that says should I write in my blog or should I go to sleep and sleep ALWAYS wins.. Not that its really a big deal anyways because I don't think anyone reads this thing anyways! But oh well!

Johnny's mom Lesha and Dalton my little brother came out over their spring break and Easter and we had a wonderful time! Colored Eggs which didn't turn out so well.. Turns out my Food coloring mixing skills aren't great and colors ended up being only blue green or brown! haha! Opps! Now I know for next time! Macady got some fun toys from the Easter bunny and Grandma Lesha bought her a really Cute Easter dress and another spring dress! She looked so cute for church.. We only stayed for Sacrament though because Macady was just getting over having RSV! That was horrible! Two weeks of no sleep was soooo not fun! She gave us a couple scares and had to have breathing treatments but we managed and she is back to being a 100% Adorable! :)

Well Little Miss turns 6 months old a week from today and she is soooo much fun!! She is an absolute doll and I am so proud to be her mommy! She brings so much happiness into my life every day! She is getting more and more hair on her head and she just keeps getting bigger! Not to mention I can see two little white spots that are about to break through for her first little baby nippers! She is already in 9 month clothes and size 3 diapers. She wants really really badly to crawl! I really don't think it will be long before it happens! She is ready and I almost am! All I have left to baby proof the house is a baby gate for the top of the stairs. I think I found one that will work with our banister though on line so that's in the works! :) We are 100% moved into our new place and I absolutely love it! It's perfect for what we need right now and Colorado is really starting to feel like home. My mom and sister came out over the weekend and were planning on going home on Tuesday but the weather was terrible and they ended up staying till Thursday morning. We had a great time and Chelsea got a bunch of shopping done for her new house and baby Harper's room. I can't wait for that little baby to get her! Being an Aunt is pretty awesome! And it will be wonderful to see my sister as a new mommy!

May is going to be a CRAZY month for us! This is a little spill on how its going to go!

May 1st-4th - Going to Vernal for Chelsea's Baby shower.
May 6th- Macady has her 6 Month Dr's appointment. More Shots!
May 7th - MY BIRTHDAY!!
May 8th - Dalton's Birthday (My little Brother)
May 6th-11th - My Folks, Grandparents, and brother are coming out to go to the Yankees/Rockies Game!
May 12th - Mother's Day!
May 11th-17th - I'm going to Vernal with my parents to stay out there while Johnny is in Houston for training. (Then Macady and I will be flying home, her first plane ride) YIKES!
May 17th - Kevin's Birthday (Johnny's Brother)
May 23rd-26th - Going back to Vernal again for Dalton's High School Graduation.
May 25th - Macady turns 7 Months Old
May 30th - Heather' Birthday (Johnny's Sister)

THEN we finally get a little bit to take a breather! :) Until Chelsea has her baby in June!
Told you it was a little nuts!
Here are a few pictures of the last little bit!

 Church on Sunday

 Chewing on Toys. Getting those teeth to come in!

 Got some Sweet Shades at the Consignment Sale

SOO CUTE! :) 

Breathing Treatments :( SO SAD! 

 "Duck" "Kissy Lips"

 Out for Dinner With friends and Family. I love my Husband SOOOOOO Much! He is my rock and shoulder to lean on! I don't know what I would do without him! He is the most wonderful person in the world and has more heart than you know! We are blessed to Call him Husband and Daddy!

 Chewing on toes.. How do they get their legs up there??

 Easter Sunday! I swear I try to get ready and I still look like a mess!

 Little Miss Loves to drive on her car!

 First time sitting in a high chair. Met daddy For lunch downtown.

 Bouncing on Daddy's Knee. FAVORITE THING!

 

 

 Loves to chew on Apples and Bananas and Strawberries and Raspberries

Johnny, Jordan, Macady and Lydia at the Consignment sale getting ready to open doors to start shopping. Coolest thing ever!