I am a good Mom.

I am a good Mom. 

What exactly does this mean to other mothers out there? It is something you tell yourself while you are getting out of bed for the 10th time at night to go see why your little one is awake again or are you being the one that feels that you child needs to cry it out and learn to sooth themselves? Are you the mom that breastfeeds because it's the best thing you can do for your baby or are you using formula because you can't lose anymore of your sanity being a milk cow? Are you the mom that sees your child fall down at the park and you watch before jumping to their aid or do you jump right up in order to  help them right away? Are you the mom that has 1 child or 10? Are you the mom that can have a baby and fit in your pre pregnancy clothes within weeks of having it or are you still not in them and your baby is 10? Did you have a natural birth or are you given the death glare when you say that you had a C-section?

There are SOOOO many different ways that we are moms, so many different sinarios that make you the person you are. A good Mom. Society has come up with this vision that we have to be perfect. That our kids can't throw tantrums, that we can't have stretch marks, that we should have our hair and make up done daily, that our children should excel at life before they can even walk. We all know this. Yet, somehow we all fall into that hole that causes us to feel like horrible mothers. Why do they do this to us? Probably a question that we will never get the answer to. I can tell you this much, I have some incredible women in my life that have set such an example to me on how to be a good mom. However some how each day I question if I am or not. I have kept my child alive and she is going on 18 months. So that is something. But I still question if I am doing everything right. 

So here I am, being a stay at home mom, taking care of my sweet baby girl. We get dressed every day, I do her hair to keep it out of her face. Mine usually ends up in a pony tail and I daily wear yoga pants. Daily she will have a melt down about one thing or another, sometimes in public sometimes at home. Our dinners at home seems to go amazingly well but when we do manage to go out to eat it always seems to be a disaster and we never sit to eat at a restaurant, so please forgive me as I let my child play on the floor while I scarf my food down. Please forgive our tantrums and understand that I am doing my very best I can. Understand that as these little children grow and develop, they are becoming their own person and having their own personality and most the time it isn't the same opinion that I had, so it ends with them being upset. Sometimes I think that is how we all have to learn in this life. We choose our own opinion on things and most the time others don't like it and we have to learn to either throw a fit about it and throw ourselves on the ground or we can be ok with the situation and walk on. Please don't let society tell you whether or not you are a good mom. Let you be the judge of you and be the best you can be.

I am an amazing Mom.  

My husband is the most supportive soul on the face of the Earth. He talks me down when I am on fire, he laughs when I am on the verge of tears about something silly, he hugs me when I least expect is and when I need it the most. I don't know how people can do it without a significant other. He is the rock that holds our family up from the worst and I am seriously the most blessed person ever to have him in my life. Our sweet girl is at that age where she LOVES her dad, and it is the most heart melting thing in the world to see her fawn over him and him play with her and hug her in every way a little girl should be hugged by her daddy. I feel that in this life your husband should be your #1. This is so hard when you have kids. They are in constant need of your attention and time. I do try my very best to be the best wife I can to my sweet husband. I need him, I need him every single day by my side. I couldn't do it without him. He is mine forever and I couldn't be more happier about that. 

I am an amazing Wife.

I always tell myself that I need to be the better person. I need to be the one that steps up. That volunteers first, that can always be counted on in a time of need. I feel that this is something I do for myself. I love being there for people. I love to be the person people can count on no matter what. It's a lot of work and there are days that I feel like I just can't sometimes, but once I have done it, I always feel better! I try to be everyones everything, and there are times that it just isn't logical or isn't possible. And that is ok. It's ok to fall short sometimes because you can't be all at once. ITS OK. That's what makes us human. We try our best and just let go of the rest. I treat others how I wish to be treated and I feel that I should get the same respect in return. I am always trying to better myself. Shouldn't that be what we are all doing? Making ourselves better tomorrow than we are today? I love life, I love my life, I love the beauty that is all around us every day. Try to enjoy every minute of it. Just because we have to plan for tomorrow, doesn't mean that we can't enjoy today!

I am an amazing person.

I know this is a whole lot of rambling and maybe some of it doesn't even make sense. I am ok with that. Hopefully you are too.

15 Months Old

I am very behind on blogging. Life has just seemed to fly by this last little while! It's been crazy! So here is a little recap of the last couple months. I am not the best writer, everything in my head seems so deep and meaningful and then I go to write it down and it sounds nothing like I had in my head. So I am grateful for todays technology that allows me to have my phone on hand to snap a picture at any given second. So I tend to let my pictures tell most of my stories. 

Macady's birthday was in October and it was a blast! We had a whole house full of guests and she was purely spoiled rotten.. We need a bigger house to fit all her toys in. :) She had a blast and was very excited with all the new things to play with. 

We have been going to this place called "The Little Gym" and Macady LOVES it! She has learned to walk on a balance beem, do a summer sault, hang from rings, throw a ball, kick a ball, run, and a million other things. We look forward to every Friday morning. :)

Since Macady was born she has always had an attitude, she was always sassy, and even a little down right cranky all the time. In her early months we had been ran through the ringer trying different things. I went off dairy while I was breastfeeding because they thought she might have a dairy intolerance. She never had normal poos (TMI). We pretty much got passed off as being a fussy baby and that was it. Nothing more was said nothing more was done, I just had to deal with it. We couldn't ever go out to dinner with her because she wouldn't sit in the high chair for more than five minutes before having a melt down. She never woke up happy, she was always crying. I always pictured my child being excited and smiling to see me when I walked in to get her in the mornings and after naps, and she never was. I was beyond frustrated and was determined to find an answer. Surely there was a happy baby in there somewhere. Finally a little after Macadys' birthday my lower back had been hurting and I had thought about how I had gone to the Chiropractor the whole time I was pregnant and it got me through my pregnancy. WAIT!!! LIGHT BULB.. Maybe that is what is wrong?! Maybe she has a pinched nerve or something?! So I did some research and found a Chiropractor that specializes in pediatrics. He got us in right away for an analysis. After doing some scans on her sure as heck she was pretty messed up! He showed me all the spots she had problems. Her tail bone was in her lower back LITERALLY in her lower back. He said he was sure she had been in pain her whole short life. Also when she walked her left leg turned out just slightly. And if you remember our birth story she was very tangled up with her left leg up over her neck wrapped up in the cord, hence the slight turn out. My poor baby!! So after 2, just 2 adjustments she was HAPPY!!!! She had normal not water poos, she was drinking whole milk (which I was told she probably would never be able to do because she was going to be intollerant), she would fall asleep in my arms, she woke up HAPPY and smiling! Not only that she was sitting through dinners without crying. She would listen to me when I was talking and then she started running. :) My baby is officially a happy child. (Minus the inbetween spits of still being a child and teething) I love her to pieces, I always have, but it sure makes it more fun when they are happy! I will for sure be taking my next child to him when its born because I don't want my next to be feeling the way Macady has for so long! Poor baby! So since the first of November I have had a very happy child that is a constant chatter box. I am just hoping that some day all of it will start making sense because right now it just sounds like mumbo jumbo. She did say her first Official word the other day though.. Apple. :)

Macady took 6 weeks of swim lessons and thought it was pretty awesome! She loves the water, she gets very excited and kicks like crazy! She can jump off the edge to us, get dunked, and went down the water slide with daddy. She thinks its pretty fun. So we might have a gymnastic swimmer on our hands!

We went to the Denver stock show to watch grandma show, while we were there we went to the petting zoo and got to see lots of babies. Donkeys, sheep, goats, pigs, chickens, alpacas. Macady was kissed by a goat and bit by a pig :/ Chelsea and I got attacked by the very hungry alpacas!! 

Macady had her 15th month check up today and here are her stats. :)

Head - 18.8 Inches - 94th Percentile

Weight - 23 Pounds 8 Ounces - 80th Percentile

Height - 32.7 Inches - 98th Percentile.

She is growing up so much!! It is so sad to not have a "baby" any more. Everytime I see one or hold one I cry! Yeah talk about pathetic! Lol.. Someday we'll have another one! For now I just think we will enjoy our big girl!! She got her second MMR and her first Chicken pox shot today. Those ones hurt. But I just found out that they aren't supposed to get the chicken pox any more! They get one shot when they are 15 months and then the second when they are 4 and they aren't supposed to get them! Strangest things ever and all I can say is LUCKY DUCKS! Those were the worst! I guess it just makes my life that much easier! Well that is all for now! I had better go get the dishes done while someone is sleeping! :)